I Want To...

[Ohverride]

Understand.
Love. Hate. Love. Hate.
Hate hate hate.
Love love love.
Everyone hates each other.
Everyone loves each other.
Bartholomew loathes. Catildre loathes.
When does it even stop?
Remove one and another hates you.
It all gets lost in the din.
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Journal, I think you love me more than most.
I am Kakku. I am the flecks of starlight.
The empty heart.
I am in love with brick walls that my love bounces off of.
I hate things that I'll never ever see.
I am the cursed and I am blessed.
I am so alone.
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I hate what I am. Nobody hates me more than I do.
There's nobody who knows me well enough to hate me.
I fall just short of any direction to mean anything.
But I keep having the same dream.
A figure staring down at me.
Backed by a black sky
Looking down at me.
I've become so lazy, haven't I? Not enough work...
Not enough strength...
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I'm tired of not mattering.
Libertato. Bartholomew. King Camino.
Catildre. The Tower. Even Nera.
You all made something yourselves.
Ivory. Damned. Towers.
I am tired of being so close to the ground when I just want to touch the stars.
Adrian.
Don't make me take an impossible task on.
I love you.
What will it take?
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I keep having the same dream...
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Gods, a bit of bliss.
It ought to last a lifetime.