Melodies for the Stars

[Soba]

Inside a calm, silent room, a young girl writes into her journal. Silent scribbles gently resonating through the air as moonlight leaks through the windows. Peace and silence. If not just for a moment. As she writes her feelings, woes, and worries amongst the pages.

X/X/1843

Hi! Hello? I got this journal as a birthday present today! So i might as well put it to some use, right?  I'll be honest in saying I'm not exactly sure how to begin writing in a journal. It's a little bit of a new experience for me. I was told to write into one so i can keep track of things. But keep track of what you may ask? Or...i may ask. Well, i wasn't sure what to do with this at first, since i'm not much of a writer. But after much deliberation, i have come to the conclusion that it'll help me with my studies if i do write in it! Father taught me that word. 'Deliberation'. Did i spell it right? Anyway. i cannot help but admit this is quite the relaxing and engaging activity! It'd odd. Everything seems so quiet now that my siblings are sleeping. Normally, i try my best to engage in practicing one of my instruments during times like these. But it seems tonight seems to be a night where i try something different! I don't want to waste my birthday present, after all. Even if all i got was a journal, some socks, and a...comb? I would not want to waste such kindness by throwing them away! Though, i'm still not sure what the comb is for. Nevertheless, i'd like a place where i can write notes regarding my studies on the stars. A place to write my melodies will also suffice so i figure that i put this new journal to use! I'm starting to feel as if being the eldest sibling in this family makes it so i get less presents than some of the others. But that is okay! It is not good to get envious or jealous, after all! That's what mother always says.

Where do i even begin with this? Do i write about myself? I guess...i can introduce myself. Introduce myself to myself? No, no...that doesn't make sense now does it? But what if someone reads this? Oh, that would be embrassing! I don't want that. Especially since it's hard enough to talk to others already. It's fine, i can perhaps look at this for future reference if i introduce myself to someone else i don't know! Right? Anyway, my name is Cordelia Gardios. I am twelve years old. (I turned twelve today!) I like music, crepes, and stuffed animals. The latter i keep a secret, of course. I also love studying the Stars. It seems all cosmic magi love doing that though, don't they? So i guess that's not very much a surprise. I haven't figured out the process to attaching myself to a star yet, though. I've been told that i have potent 'mana circuits'. Whatever that means! So i guess it's possible for me to use cosmic magic like mother? Or maybe it will be water like father? I don't know really. Mother had told me many times just how special i am for being 'blessed by Leonaus'. She flicks my ears when she says that. Like being half-Felinae has something to do with that. But i don't care about magic. I just like the stars because they're pretty. Too many people use magic to hurt people. If i am able to use it, i want to use it to help others! Not hurt them. I don't get that. Why do people just hurt each other and be bad to each other? There are so many wars that happen all the time where i live. And no matter how many times i ask about it, i just don't get it. Oh! I'm rambling aren't i? I'm sorry. Oh, i shouldn't apologize i'm talking to myself! Okay, i have to get ready for class tomorrow. Now that i'm twelve that means it's time for me to start going to school! It's going to be fun, right? I hope it's fun..

Well goodbye! (I don't know how to end an entry yet!)

Melodies: (work in progress!):  (very secret! do not read!)
(Elys, if you're reading this, i'm going to kill you.)  

Melody One(twilight)

Melody Two(paradise)

[Soba]

"The day's are certainly...different than they used to be. If i'm being honest, it's almost as if they just go by faster and faster every day. People....don't seem to understand how difficult it is to be someone such as myself. Someone who is so scared that they won't be able to live up to their own expectations that they put upon themselves. My duties as a Priestess have been...fulfilling. But the more i learn about this world, the more i seem to realize just how different things seem to be. Compared to when i was a child, at least. I used to believe that evil was...simple. It was the monsters hiding under your bed, the thief who'd steal your purse in the darkest of nights. They were evil. Bad people who did bad things. But....as an adult, you realize...there might be a reason for why that monster was hiding under your bed. Why that thief ran off with your coin. Maybe the monster had no where else to sleep? Or the thief had a family to feed and was so desperate that he'd do anything to do so? It's...things like this that keep me up at night. Will i be able to have the strength to do what i need to do in the near future?

Or will i end up failing?

I'm worried that...i won't succeed. And i'm afraid my own doubts are holding me back. All i want, is to make this world a better place. There will be times where i know i'll have to hurt people and make hard decisions in order to do so. But i genuinely believe in the kindness in other's hearts. Life is...beautiful. And we cannot let it go to waste by continuing to sully the gift that is life with genocide and bloodshed. I saw as such today during the battle. It was bloody and...gruesome. And while i didn't attend on the front lines, the work that i needed to do in order to heal those in need was more than enough to fill me with so much grief and show me how awful man can be. I need to continue my path and show others just how beautiful life truly is. Despite the hard truths and despicable acts that i discover every day, there is an innate beauty within the human heart. One that i hope to one day reawaken using the power of the Stars. And one that i'll forever believe in. No matter the sins buried within such hearts

Life is not only beautiful. It is fragile. Seeing others die so easily....wilting away in the palm of my hands. It filled me with so much despair. Seeing others die and not being able to save them is something i'll never be able to forgive myself for. I know that the best i can do for them is pray that their souls reach a better life. But...at the same time, i can't help feel i could have done more for them. If only i was stronger. If only i was able to bring people from the brink of death.. Heal them and comfort them. Let them know that everything will be okay. There is a bit of hope lingering in the great beyond. A light that i want to harness and use for the greater good of this world. I must put a stop to all of this bloodshed. No matter the cost, i want to stop all of this once and for all..

Like that girl said long ago, being a hero is going to hurt me one of these days. But i know it's the path i must continue walking if i want peace..

I'll aim high for the stars. Hoping i can reach them one day.

Melodies: (Still work in progress, i guess.)

Melody Three: Broken

Lyrics for Paradise: (wip?)


"I can't get my mind off of those sweet memories."

"I'm begging you please, don't take my dreams..."

"You smile brings my soul to life and dries up all my tears."

"You make the pain disappear...."


"Time flies but it's oh, so hard to let go.."

"Like the seasons, it slowly comes and it goes."

"I ease the blues with my favorite tunes...-"

"I play all day, with my eyes closed.."

"Time flies but it's oh so hard to let go..."

"Like the seasons, it slowly comes and it goes."

"I ease the blues with my favorite tunes..."

"I play all day, with my eyes closed.."


"I can't remember your smile or your gentle embrace..."

"I have no way to tell you, don't walk away..."

"My sorrow keeps holding me down, when my soul wants to be free."

"Please save me from this misery.."


"Time flies but it's so hard to let go."

"Each moment, so precious and frail like the snow."

"I close my eyes for a piece of mind."

"Please let me live in this heavenly place..."

"Time flies but it's so hard to let go."

"Each moment, so precious and frail like the snow."

"The pain ends when i'm with you all."

"You are my heart....and my gentle embrace....."