07-24-2020, 07:37 AM
To speak about the past, would mean I am not looking to the future.
But to remember what went wrong is important to not repeat.
And as this goes for all of Esshar, I find this meaning in myself too.
But to remember what went wrong is important to not repeat.
And as this goes for all of Esshar, I find this meaning in myself too.
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Quote:So many Teraphim come without questions, so many of them come without truly understanding what our goal truly is.
To follow something blindly even if it brought you into this world, do you think our Mother wanted us to be nothing?
We are made with a purpose, but that purpose grows and becomes more. That's from our work and our dedication.
Mother wants us to question what we are, and to question what our goal truly is in life. She wants that... Do you?
Yes, I want to be something much more than a follower. And I want to understand what it is I protect, not swing blindly.
To ask another Teraphim or one with little experience what balance truly is? Their answer will be clouded, unrefined.
But after questioning my existence, and dealing with the taunting of others for so long... I found my own answer.
That is what our mother wants from us all, to find our own answers as to what we are protecting.
As it was rigged from the start, balance will never exist.
And to be told otherwise is from a blind follower.
Someone who will never find themselves.
One to disappoint our Mother.
And it is only when you find yourself that your true growth begins.
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This whole time I was fighting myself, and there can only be one winner.
And once we realize that, everything else can become our target.
But what do we do, beyond the question of ourselves?
When you still struggle to understand others?
And all you do, is cause harm?
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Questions of our emotion, and how to mend the hearts of others.
Are ones a Doctor cannot answer, and Aschea cannot either.
And I find myself still searching for that answer now.
What is expected of me?
I'm sorry I couldn't do more.
But I will put my life on the line for it all.
And one day, those broken hearts can be fixed again.
...Before I break another...
Thoughts of a Young Doctor.
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