07-22-2020, 09:59 AM
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Alone on a table in a well lit workshop lies the journal of a certain Rhoynish Princess. Though many pages are torn out, the very first remaining page reads the following:
I promised that I’d always smile no matter what.
I wanted to be the best princess in all of Esshar, a warrior that the Rhoynish could take pride in forever. I wanted to be strong so that I didn’t have to hide anymore. I was tired of hiding and watching people get hurt for me. They were afraid too, weren’t they? But they still fought their very hardest for my sake. I wanted to be brave and honorable like them. An ideal Rhoynish. So I ran head first into danger trying to change as quickly as possible. I couldn’t stand being the way I was. I wanted to win at everything and forget there was ever a time I could lose. I wanted to stand above everyone else to touch the stars and conquer the world with my own two hands like I thought a Rhoynish should. I know I’m selfish. I’ve always been selfish.
Then they weren’t there anymore. The shadow they cast was gone. I burned in the sun.
Their hurtful laughter, the way they look down on me, and how they shove my weakness in my face makes me sick. Even though I changed, dad won’t accept me as I am. Then Cas’ was suddenly gone. A part of me left with him. I felt lonely. I cried alone. They broke the promise we made. I made a promise to kill them all. I don’t care what happens to me or what I become as long as I can prove them all wrong. Are you watching, Cas’? I’m sorry I never accepted your final apology. I never thought you’d leave me. I forgive you. I’ll always love you, my strong Rhoynish brother. I’ll think of you whenever I look out at the sea because I know a part of you is still there in it. I’ll never forgive them for what they did to you.
Eli’, Ulfric, Anira, Philip…
Listen to my battle cry.
I’ll protect you all till the very end. Not as a Rhoynish, but as Tea Marie Ilian. Your terrible, selfish friend.
Even though I can’t fulfill that childish promise anymore.
I wanted to be the best princess in all of Esshar, a warrior that the Rhoynish could take pride in forever. I wanted to be strong so that I didn’t have to hide anymore. I was tired of hiding and watching people get hurt for me. They were afraid too, weren’t they? But they still fought their very hardest for my sake. I wanted to be brave and honorable like them. An ideal Rhoynish. So I ran head first into danger trying to change as quickly as possible. I couldn’t stand being the way I was. I wanted to win at everything and forget there was ever a time I could lose. I wanted to stand above everyone else to touch the stars and conquer the world with my own two hands like I thought a Rhoynish should. I know I’m selfish. I’ve always been selfish.
Then they weren’t there anymore. The shadow they cast was gone. I burned in the sun.
Their hurtful laughter, the way they look down on me, and how they shove my weakness in my face makes me sick. Even though I changed, dad won’t accept me as I am. Then Cas’ was suddenly gone. A part of me left with him. I felt lonely. I cried alone. They broke the promise we made. I made a promise to kill them all. I don’t care what happens to me or what I become as long as I can prove them all wrong. Are you watching, Cas’? I’m sorry I never accepted your final apology. I never thought you’d leave me. I forgive you. I’ll always love you, my strong Rhoynish brother. I’ll think of you whenever I look out at the sea because I know a part of you is still there in it. I’ll never forgive them for what they did to you.
Eli’, Ulfric, Anira, Philip…
Listen to my battle cry.
I’ll protect you all till the very end. Not as a Rhoynish, but as Tea Marie Ilian. Your terrible, selfish friend.
Even though I can’t fulfill that childish promise anymore.
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