12-30-2024, 08:24 PM
..to hate humanity.
I only ever hated the sins that came with it.
The greed of man, as I'd learned, always comes with a terrible price.
Unsatisfactory death.
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Unsatisfactory death.
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You kill, you maim, all in the name of selfish benefit..
..and the Council wanted no more of that, slaughtering peoples who went against their divine judgement,
where Azrael stood against the decision, wanting the freedom of these mortal peoples..
..all out of His love for them. For you. For all of us.
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I remember that day like it was yesterday- because I dream it every night.
The tear falling down my Morninglord's cheek when defeated by just a boy that was said to be the embodiment of Kraus, maker of our world, who shattered.
I'll never forget the look on His face, nor the look of my own mother's when her blade plunged in my chest to end my life alongside my twin brother.
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155 AC.
Almost two thousand years ago now.
I was only twenty back then, fighting alongside our people against crusaders that couldn't understand the aspirations of Azrael. A similar manifesto of today, where Fate has brought all of us who were sealed to live again, away from the Hollow World.
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Parchments call us corrupt. Narratives make us out to be as evil. But, no. We are only misunderstood.
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It's so different from my era- the near-beginning of time. There was so little to learn, save for what my father taught me- most of which are distant memories that I don't remember anymore. We knew very little compared to today, yet I miss it so much - as much as I miss my dad and my brother. I've new family now in Sanctum..
even if we're all divided on our ideals on the Morninglord's name at times.
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Sometimes, I ask myself:
Will they ever come to see the visions I behold as true to His doctrine?
Will they ever understand that His love for us- for the humans- is what enabled His fall?
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Those thoughts dive deeper into other questions, though:
Why is it that Kraus did not fix his most loyal angel, either, but banished Him?
A betrayer- he is. Abandoning his creations and angels that followed him away from Atmos, just to see this world bleed, cry, and find despair in similar notions.
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Demons alike the Akuma.
Humans alike the Angels.
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It's all the same, even in this era, yet you can redeem them, can't you?
Demons that were cleansed, witches that were saved, depraved humans freed of their sins, or Gods given a chance to be liberated from bad perceptions..
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So, why not my heavenly father, too?
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I told her in that dream, or wherever I had been, that if you can compensate for the defects of sin and find one we once considered fallen for good to be saved..
Why not an angel, too?
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He wanted better for us, as many do for him. He'd fallen in the name of love for us, so why not show him that we, too, could heal him in the same mind?
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Do I dream too big, Lord Azrael?
Can you hear these thoughts I pen down?
Are you aware that your renown love is shared for yourself, too?
..because one day, you'll see it.
I promise.
I promise.