beneath the mask of the snake

[B0b_J3ffers0n]

do you wonder if the gods feel what we feel?
some were once men, women, children once
some experienced the same pain we felt, walked in our shoes
yet what makes them so much more different than us?

the serpent god does not care
a god of doom, a god of poison, a god of snakes
a god of deceit, a god of apathy, a god of misery
he who is above

and yet, i have to ask, why does he see it fit that we return to nothing?
an endless nothing, ceaseless, aimless?
what makes us so different to the mainlanders?
why is it that we are to experience such... emptiness, in our own demise?

we are taught that cruelty is the way of our world
that to stand out is to invite the gaze of doom
for that is the nature of our species
to invite doom
to bring it unto others

a nephilim once showed me what it was like to live in the moment
she laughed with me, in a way none of my kind have
she taught me what compassion was on the mainland
it was strangely sweet
she showed me that dreams don't have to be just that
she showed me that the world was not what it seemed
she showed me that nothing is impossible
and yet
i cant
repay
her

it is in our nature as the yynglan-yi
to struggle in the face of our demise
to embrace doom as if it is second nature
it is in our nature
as the yynglan-yi
to invite doom unto others

i feel disgusted
i feel hatred
yet in my desire to change things
i am creating
i create because it is all i know
i create because it brings me joy
i create because
because

it is oft said that destruction precedes creation
that for one thing to become another
it must first be destroyed
so, then, i ask
what of despair
must one experience hope
to understand despair?

runes are a fickle thing
intention manifested in words
words manifested into reality
alteration on a magical scale
runes are a form of creation i understand
runes are what allow me to alter my mistakes
runes are what have kept me so focused
runes are what pathed the way to the impossible
it is through truly reading them
truly writing them
that i understand
creation

im so sorry, gwyn
i didnt mean to do this
i didnt mean to invite you to his gaze
i didnt

i didnt want you to die
please dont leave me alone
im not ready

please




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or so that's what i believe