My Heart and My Mind

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"She loves me..."

"... She loves me not."

"She loves me..."

"... She loves me not."

"Why do I even care so much?"

"I need her..."

"... She doesn't need me."

"She's just busy..."

"... She's abandoned me."

"You worry too much."
"I already knew that."

"I did the best I could..."

"I let him die right in front of me."

"I didn't want him to die."

"Though it's better him than me."

"But even then..."

"... Why didn't I feel anything?"

"Maybe I'm losing it. Maybe I'm just a sociopath."

"You're no sociopath, dear. You just know to concentrate your efforts."
"Well, maybe so, maybe so, or maybe you're desensitized."
"What a convenient way to put it."
"But would it be so different if it were her, instead?"
"Of course it would."

"I'm perfectly sane..."

"... I'm losing my sense of reality."

"If you talk too much sense, then you'll lose your mind."

"This might get me killed..."

"... But it's for a good cause."

"She's definitely going to die."

"I can't let that happen."

"If nobody knows, then who's gonna stop me?"

"He'd be so proud to see me now."

"He'd think I was a monster."

"He'd understand. Maybe even do the same."

"He'd snap my neck for even thinking these thoughts."

"But that's why I'm here, and he's not."

"It'd be so much easier if you two just got along."