To The Ones Lost

[tearsofthelost]

To The Ones Lost.

I've certainly come a long way from where I started, even I wouldn't have predicted such a drastic change.

Though it hasn't been long, I've learned a great deal since I decided to reveal myself to the world.

From then until now, I've shared numerous experiences with many different people.

Some good, others bad, encountering so many things I'd never experienced before.

After my mother passed away, I made a promise to myself that I would never waste my tears on another. 

I closed myself off, refusing to show love to anyone other than myself. 

I often questioned the point of loving someone you would inevitably lose. 

Why subject yourself to the pain? My actions became crude and vile as I pushed people away.

I never expected to backtrack on my words, to change because of someone else's influence.
 

From the moment I appeared, most people looked at me strangely.

Not just because of my behavior but because of who my father is. 

I was often seen as a troublesome nuisance, a rude child lacking respect for others,

but there was one exception: 

Jegnal, my uncle, the one who caused this change in me, the one I dearly miss, the one I love.

When we first met, I struggled to comprehend why you behaved as you did. 

You were the first to offer me love, and despite your rough demeanor and appearance, you were kind. 

You parted with some advice in order to give it to me, even if I was too ignorant to heed it. 

You taught me to cherish and love those I consider family. 

For the first time in what felt like forever, you showed me what it meant to be loved.

Thinking of you always brings a sense of sadness and regret.

I wish I had been there for your final moments, to hold your hand as your last breath slipped away, to speak to you one last time before you passed.

But those wishes can never be fulfilled.

All I can say is the words that I was never able to tell you.

Thank you, and I love you.

To The Ones That I Still Have.

Live however you see fit, have a death with no regrets.

[tearsofthelost]

There isn't much to say. I've done a lot of the things I desired.
I've had my accomplishments and my failures.
But I guess my time is now up, and I will now be sent forth onto a new path. 

 

The path after life. 

 

I'm a little afraid, but I will not let that fear stop me.
For with my departure comes the last chapter of my book. But all is not lost.
The end is only a prequel to a new beginning.

 

My children, when you walk these lands, I can only hope that you will tell a story greater than mine.
I've granted you a means of ending the cycle which plagued us with an inherent hostility towards most.

You've been granted all you need to prevent yourself from becoming a disaster.

 
It is only up to you to decide:

  

Will you end it? Or will the cycle continue?