[Lammy]

I’m thinking of ending things.

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I’m thinking of ending it. It comes and it creeps. It lingers and beckons. It attracts and then it pulls. Every time that I am away from you, you pull me back. But every time I come close, you push me away. These rules of attraction that often stir between us always brings me back to one single thought: of ending things, here and now, me and you.

But like the rope tied into knots, unbreakable by human hands, you hold me. This tether that keeps me bound to you through the spectrum of eternity keeps me here, and I always conscious of it. With every pull and tug of this leash, I am reminded of our destiny that binds me to the earth while you remain in the heavens. You soar, I walk. You guide through the firmament, kissing the stars and embracing them; I count the flowers and their petals, and they die when I touch.

Yet we are always destined to meet. One way or another. And every time that I do, I am reminded and rewind back to that single, lone, horrible thought:

I’m thinking of ending things.

Because you deserved better. You deserved stronger. You deserved the one that soars with you in the firmament. How, then, did it come to this?

[Lammy]

You and I became We,
We built this home out of straws and leaves,
Then turned them into bricks and boards,
All until we were able to build a foundation for Us.

And through Us, our children;
Through our children, a legacy.
But I can’t help but consider the what-if’s-
The potential for you to find another.

Maybe it is the endless thought that bugs me;
Like a leech that never wants to leave-
Or want the means to-
I find myself effortlessly attached to you.
My attraction to you as natural as the blue skies above,
Bound by destiny, interwoven by and with gods,
Woven together like fine cosmic fabric, meshed well and true.

I envy that I did not find a love like that sooner;
I abhor the people that find it young.
But is it truly better this way?

Twenty-two years, and I can’t help but consider the what-if’s-
The potential for you to find another.
Or if I never took you to the mountains of what used to be,
Or if I never decided to show you the many realms.

There are many things that are forgotten by age,
Friends, family, rivals and enemies.
But I can’t forget you;
I wouldn’t know how.

[Lammy]

We were happy once forty-seven years ago before everything happened.
Before Lyseroth was sealed away, Ezan tore Mero in half, and Aubrey was the supreme.
Before Ustrea took over the position from Misfortune.
Before everything that could go wrong did go wrong - we were happy once.
We were so focused on change, to make the world enjoyable, that we forgot the things that matter to us: family.
Now, forty-seven years later, what is it that we have left?

Mero has gone to join the great fight in Hel; the warlock that he may be, he did his job - my brother, now gone with the wind.
If only I could tell you about your child. Your wife. Your everything.
You would have retired by now at sixty-one, with your child being a proper warrior.
Samuel wouldn't have gone crazy, and Arlyss would still know their other grandfather.
Now that you're gone, they, too, have gone off the haywire.
But you said to make sure to remain happy, right?

Cinderella, you will always be my baby sister.
You were an unnatural phenomenon from Lyseroth's loins and intentions, but you were my sister.
You wanted to make the world enjoyable, to do things that could leave an impact, and you did.
From Dal'thala to Aegis, to Kava and more - no one can ever doubt you.
And the person you trained has become one of the most outstanding leaders.
I'm sure that, wherever you are, you are proud of that.
For I am, too.

Anubis - though we never got to know one another, you did a lot for us.
You may have left, died, or gone to spread the name of Relvery elsewhere, but you were an inspiration; I envied you.
I still do.

Aubrey, you deserve better.
But no matter how much you knew that, you stayed loyal despite all the horrors you faced.
I would never understand the instincts or the story, but you dedicated everything and more until you couldn't.
Perhaps, in another life, you would have been stronger without him, or maybe you would have lived on montany.
But Sabathiel is doing fine and reached grey hairs, and your grandchildren have grown into worthy warriors of respect.
I would have hoped that you would have been able to see them a few times before your disappearing act, but this is needed.
Even if it was unfair.

As for me,  I don't deserve a gravestone next to you all.
I have failed on numerous fronts.
From having half of my heart devoured,
To not being able to protect the people I care for.
But at least I can say that despite all the years that have passed and will pass.
I'll never forget you.

Happy birthday, Mero Dominic.
We'll see each other soon.

[Lammy]

Every year, another one.
And another year, I am still alive.

When will the suffering end?
And how can I be happy, Mero, when I'm losing it all?

Samael, my beautiful child.
No father should have to bury his son like this.

[Lammy]

In the end, I never wanted things to end.
But no story is ever good without an ending.
And I am glad that I ended up with the people I loved.

But tomorrow's adventure is right around the corner.
And I'll see you there.



fin.

[GravityChill]

The likes of your tale have finally come to an end.

My brother, one who has been my blood for years even as my time has passed.

For now, I wait to greet you with open arms once more.

To hear of your tales and life, for I can only hope that in the end-

That I am reunited with my brother once more.

For Brother,

I have missed you.