Odd Dead

[NeatherRealmer]

I look at the mirror.

I don't like what I see since it reminds me that I'm really different.

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Stitched face.

Discolored skin.

Eyes that don't blink and don't have light.

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My body is cold, so cold. Really cold. So I try to warm it up.

Burn. Burn. Burn. That way, I'll seem like a human.

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I place my hand against the mirror.

I was risen in Wonderland, so I wonder if I'm like Alice looking at the Looking-Glass.

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If I go through this mirror, will I become like them?

Or maybe if I smile like they do.

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Fingers against my cheek, push up, up, up.

Griiiiin.

My teeth are sharp, but it should be fine, right?

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If I smile, laugh and talk loudly, they'll act like I'm their friend, right?

If I keep fighting and fighting, pops will act like I'm his daughter, right?

If I keep doing well...

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... will I be reborn as a living being?

Tell me, pops.

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Am I their friend or just a fight?

[SilkiyTea]

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sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
I didn't mean to kill you, I was just angry, I was just afraid.
I didn't want to die, I didn't want to kill you but the fear I felt each time you tried to kill me won me over.
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I'm sorry Andy, I'm sorry. I failed to spare him.
I'm sorry.
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But even though I've killed you, I refuse to accept the words that I am a monster.
This feeling that bites into my heart hurts, and it scares me that eventually it might fade away.
But I will protect myself. My life. Pops'. My friends. My family's.
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It's you or me.
You or the people that I care for.
You or my ambitions.
You or my dreams.
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And I will pick the latter each time the question has been asked.
So I'm sorry, I really am.
I will cry for you, shed tears for you and apologize to you.
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But I will do what I have to do.
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