Loved and lost

[Cali]

"I was such a fool to think otherwise.... why would I put my faith in you."

At times I thought it was more about the time spent together
Then what I could give you
But no matter how much I slaved away working to the bone to make sure everyone was happy and in the right state of mind
No one ever asked if I was okay

"Close your heart to it."

But I can't?
Does this make sense to you? I am only human after all as much as a Monster as I wanted to be I cannot void myself of Empathy.
How can I ignore emotions?
It's Impossible and you know it.
                                                           "I love you"

                          I never said it back.

And then you tried to fill my head with dreams of a future that is now impossible all for what?
Pride?

Don't make me laugh my whole life I have been defending my pride and that of my family Don't say it was about pride.

You wanted something of your own, something I couldn't give you even though I had already promised you the world you just wanted to rip me up into pieces you knew what you meant to me and you selfishly did this...

"I was a fool to place faith in you..."



"Such a fool, but never again will I put my trust in someone like you.."

Did you love her?

I don't know...

What will you do now?

I want to drown myself in emotion.

I want my pain to be felt physically I want people to suffer like I am now.

And most importantly I want to have my revenge even if that means I have to die violently to get it.

So you will use your pain and suffering as a weapon.

....

That's what I'll do

Not for you


But for myself...

looking back now
I'm glad I never said it back

[Cali]

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[ambiance for the post don't click if you don't feel like you vibe with it]
Sometime after the ritual, explosion and clashing of blades and magic could be heard within the dread woods.
Some report that a silver haired man left sometime after being bloodied and limping though the biggest report
Was the tears of black ichor falling from his face.

"We can  find you another cat girl."

"It's a shame what happened to her."

"Well that sucks."

Stop it...

You don't care.. why are you lying to me?

She was your student.... where was her funeral...

She was your friend and she was mine...

How could you be so cold?

"I won't let them forget you... because your haunting me."

"I have no peace of mind because you were my biggest failure."

"Get out of my head... stop it please I'm begging you."

"Will you let them laugh at you? their fake smiles their mask... behind them they pitty you..."

"I know..."

"Is that why you couldn't walk away?"

"......"

"Well either way more violence for me to feed on... I can't be mad at you.."

"But didn't you say you didn't love her... so why does her name send you into a violent rage..."





"Because they don't understand.... You can't replace a soul, you can't simply forget as much as they try... I won't forget... and I will not forgive."
"So I'll do what I must, I'll lie.. I'll cheat I'll kill until I get the justice I deserve... I'll whatever I'll have to to clear this empty void within me.."

"Oh...ha.....ha...ha..."