07-27-2020, 07:13 PM
You broke my heart.
I've made mistakes, quite a few.
Things I can't replace, things that hurt you.
I've made my bed, and said what I've said.
There was always a beating coming, and it wouldn't do me any good running.
I've made my mistakes, but so have you.
You wanted me to throw my life away.
You wanted me to have eyes for only you.
Lately I've found the latter to be true.
But I'm afraid the former won't go that way.
The most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest.
That day I thought about killing you.
And I love you more than I love myself.
Does that make my life worthless?
You treated me like a hound.
You wanted to use me.
You wanted our love to be temporary.
So I struck. I bit. I showed you that you were wrong.
You broke my heart. You shattered it into a million pieces.
From the looks of it even a millionth of my heart would still rather be with you.
You wanted me to leave my life behind.
You never understood who gave meaning— what made my life one worth living.
^ you
You threw me away, yet I still think about you.
I crossed you out of my life, yet I still think about you.
My friends hate me for it, but they're not you.
The horrors, the darkness, the secrets you're hiding, I don't care to know them.
I know myself. I know I might get scared. I know I might make a mistake, so don't tell me anything.
I don't care if you're horrible.
I don't care if you turn into a Demon.
Those words I've said that night still stand.
I love you.
I just wanted us to be equals. I just could not stand the idea of you ever letting go of me. I was angry.
I crossed out our love, but it seems it's stronger than even my blade, my will.
I should have expected a snake to bite me. I just never thought it'd hurt that much.
Call me insane, but I love you.
Tell me it's over, and I'll love you.
Try to kill me, and it's with tears that I'll regret ruining our happiness.
I don't expect another chance, another shot.
I owe you a cut across the chest.
I owe you years of love.
I owe you to grow old together.
I want to owe you those.
Today I seriously thought about killing myself. I contemplated it. Suicide.
And I thought about killing you and I love you way more than I love myself.
You'd only care enough to kill somebody you love.
The most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest.
You broke my heart.
I love you.
You've made me lose my mind.
You're my world.
Let's do it again.