[Lung]

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You know what? I may have been through a lot, but I don't like to mourn to others, I find it very annoying, not being able to deal with your own problems and push it others. but i managed to solve my self-hate and that filled my heart with no more anger but joy.


I'm happy now, I found happiness in something, and that something now lives inside me once again,even without knowing what is it, i just feel it. Now, whenever i lose and prove that my mentors were right, that im not strong enough for this world, instead of sadness, i feel I cannot be overthrown by negativity or remorse anymore! After all i did my best, if that was not enough? there is no reason to be upset. only to find a new level and improve to that one.

Of course im not fully healed yet, and still have a lot stuff to improve, but is much better spend the bad momments or good ones, with something that make you happy.
                                                                                                                      -Phalanx

Memory Fragment
Nº: ???
Year: 1822
Location: Phalanx house.
Momment that make awoke: Phalanx and dimitri fight.
Level of impact: Hopeful.
Current status: Acceptance.

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  Perhaps the only reason phalanx has been worse these past few years is because he had something he loved taken from him. replaced by another that couldn’t make him happy, it just pissed him off, according to his own words, eos helped in middle of fight and returned it? maybe it was his own love, or the trust he had lost in his potential? in the end not even he knows what was given to him. but he is feeling much better now.

  After a some moths of the event with lain the year ends and phalanx was in the begin of a new one. phalanx found himself lost in a spiral of hate, and discontent, his spirit was so strong that even with that he continued to train daily instead of just brooding in hate, even though in his view it was useless, the only friend he had, that not see him as inferior like the other ones, come pay a visit to give him a good new, and try to cheer him up.

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At night, phalanx is lying on the bed of his room, looking at his fingers, irritated as he punchs the wall lightly, the sound of the door being knocked breaks this action. he goes to the door to see who it is, maybe someone wanting to sell something.

When opening the door his vision is much better, it was tatsu one of the friends who continued to motivate phalanx despite everything, he had gone on a mission so he had spent the months away.

"Good evening tatsu, good to see you again why you here" He looks at him and his new gear? he have some enchanted gloves with glowing runes, even phalanx could feel it coming from his hands.
(Phalanx)

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Tatsu who had come to phalanx's house, as soon as he knew what had happened, knew he was going to be in a bad shape, but he was surprised when he saw that phalanx was still training? well, at least he wouldn't have any setbacks after he tell him about something.

"What is this phalanx" He look as him from foot until head. "You look in shape but i can tell you're not good at all." He looks at him with a serious expression while get inside the house.

"Straight to the point, remember when they told us in classes, that we needed master a style to upgrade our melee combat? forget about it, i found i way that you could turn into a silver sentinel too." He sits in a chair new the dinner table.
(Tatsu)

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What ? a way? at first this did not make Phalanx very happy, after all besides not having digested the information well, he sat together at the same dinner table, trying to understand what was happening.

"What do you mean..." He looks confused at kai his face is still a mess
(Phalanx)

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Looking at phalanx still with an expression would he tell the gap he found. "There is a rule that says, recruit who breaks all records in physical exercises, has the right to be considered a silver sentinel." He pauses for a moment to see the phalanx reaction and then continues.

"Its not a easy thing to do, since all records were from the Mentors." He gets up and start to walking to the door. "Remember that blow you did in lain? you already have a good affinity to melee combat, you just need push youself to the limit. Think about it okay?" He leaves the house and closes the door.
(Tatsu)

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Still immature, blinded by low self-esteem, and frustrated, phalanx ignores what tatsu said, he just goes to his bed and lies down to sleep, maybe at least in his dreams he could have a little peace and dream of being someone. a pity not even there he had peace and could dream of being a sentinel.

Several minutes pass and he is able to fall asleep.

In a very strange dream he sees himself, with everything black, without exuding anything, but can he still hear a voice? strangely familiar, even though he has never heard it before, for the first time in his coming he feels in tune in the place he was? what place is this? he tried to see where the voice comes in the dark.

"Dont forget who you are," Then another one? each time one finish talking other appears... "How a punk like you ended up here? have some self respect", "Get them kid, you can do it, right into the balls". Then the weirdest one... "You're who we Always wanted to be, we just choosed ignore it and follow the world flow, instead your own." He feels.... welcomed?

His rapid heartbeat started to end the dream and he quickly wakes up scared, not understanding anything that had happened, instead of thinking about it, he just focused on what he felt, and remembered what tatsu said. a sudden burst of motivation was with him.
(Phalanx)

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After that? he spent the next 2 years, ignoring all classes that were related to magic, none of this would be useful for him now that he would need to focus on his goal, 2 hard years of training and training, in the course of them breaking the physical records one by one, one step at a time, from weight lifting, to throwing, resistance, strength and agility. With all this effort he obviously caught the attention of his mentors, who were impartial in this regard, but in the case of lain, it just pissed him off. in one of his training sessions after beating all records and being approved for try final examn as a especial case.  lain came to phalanx and said.

The world will teach you what we couldn't.
-Lain

He was not intimitated at first, but as he passed time in esshar, and thing happen, little by little his link to his motivation were dying, at one point he lose it forever. until one day...

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In all his strides ... phalanx did not stop feeling something and thinking something. Strong... every blow was with his full mighy but more and more that feeling was consuming him... Why he was not doing damage? WHAT IM A DOING WRONG... IM GOING LOSE! he was starting to feel with fear.

Mortia dragged him and keep him away from dimitri while phalanx face her. he was on his knees... Losing hope he knew the max point he could get and he know he cant win this battle. he had give up? mortia rushes into him with full speed.

But he suddenly feel good? he felt like something he loved and was take from him came back... but how? blind godness is that you? you belive in my potential when even i do not?, in middle of battle... he dont had much time to think he just acted.

Seconds before the engage he enteres in a stance charging all his power and doing a FLYING KICK kicking her back do dimitri, he was not finished yet.

"Hey dimitri, have you ever heard this words?" He smile even knowing he could still not win but he was happy.

"Its not about win, its about doing you best." He rushes into a inhuman speed.
(Phalanx)

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Dimitri Asimov says, ". .but winning is better."

The vicious blows and constantly changing stances brought a heavy frown to Dimitri's face, so he decided to use Mortia as more of a distraction rather than a method of attacking.

Fist connected against onyx chitin as the Nethradin moved to interrupt the pugilist from getting too closer to her Master. As such happened, an ebony maelstrom was summoned to the location to barrage and cut into Phalanx's form again and again.

As he leaped forth to send a FLYING KICK into his sabotaged chest, the man found himself being launched far away by a vortex of unparalleled proportions! He was now back within the safe location of the mines, but the Spider's venom slowly began to take its toll.

Battered and wounded, Dimitri would look to the remaining Achyonites. ". .we return home."
(Dimitri Asimov)

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While being thrown away phalanx had lost consciousness for a few moments, after rolling very close to the mine he finds himself on the ground with only the memories of his former mentors speaking. 'World will teach you what we couldn't.' again and again.

Despite feeling bad he was angry with himself. he talked too much again and pay the price for it. After get up he goes back do osrona to treat this annoying poison. His spirit hurted more than his body of knowing his best will never be enough.

"They can haunt me as much they want." He splits some blood on his side.

"Im not giving up yet." He starts to walk.
(Phalanx)

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