04-02-2024, 05:39 PM
(huh wow I guess I accidentally logged in to a temporary account? whatever... this one is real)
and sleep, that I may wake without regret
Lila,
You never lacked for raw strength. You always sought to sharpen your skills, to change to match them.
It was never even the difficulty you experienced in enriching yourself. It was never the curiosity you held for the darkest mysteries, nor the love and obsession that twisted your heart a thousand times and broke it several more. It was never the ignorance that you hid behind, the hesitation just before you took a bite, or the fear that haunted every one of your victories. Some of these things had a part to play in my birth, but so many of them were simply symptoms of the disease.
It was always what you were unwilling to do.
And I am the piece of you that will.
I am the one who does.
Blood like cherries. Liquor like juice.
I am our panacea.
Drink me like suicide.
You never lacked for raw strength. You always sought to sharpen your skills, to change to match them.
It was never even the difficulty you experienced in enriching yourself. It was never the curiosity you held for the darkest mysteries, nor the love and obsession that twisted your heart a thousand times and broke it several more. It was never the ignorance that you hid behind, the hesitation just before you took a bite, or the fear that haunted every one of your victories. Some of these things had a part to play in my birth, but so many of them were simply symptoms of the disease.
It was always what you were unwilling to do.
And I am the piece of you that will.
I am the one who does.
Blood like cherries. Liquor like juice.
I am our panacea.
Drink me like suicide.
and sleep, that I may wake without regret