03-03-2024, 11:06 AM
I am dying.
Of this much, I am aware with certainty. I am not bothered by this however, as it is only natural for things to die after a certain point. Sixty Eight years.. Ten of which I seemingly lost somewhere along the line, in service to Alacritas, The Kingdom of Fortune, and in rare cases on an oath for others. And yet, other than the projects I have received help on from those willing to offer such aid.. I have very little to show for it, other then failures and losses, on the things I hold important.
And yet.. I still push forward, because to stop now would be more disgraceful then to continue.
Thus, I have sanctioned and activated two more Sentionauts. My final thank you to my Father, blessed with the same beginnings and learning I was, with no other purpose than to simply live. It has been.. Amusing watching them process and grow, almost looking into a mirror of the past. It makes the weight I carry ever so slightly lighter, a false hope for my own vanity, that perhaps, they will be able to do what I could not. But I will not force them, for it is their choice alone, what path they take.
As for my own personal project, it finally nears its end. All that remains is finding one capable of handling the materials to be used, one that I can trust the same as the ones that had worked on it prior. However I cannot accept anything less then the best on such matters, for it will be left for those that come after I have finally been released of my oaths and duty. Still, I am at least closer now then I have been in years.
Lately however, being anywhere near home, or even in the many cities of the land have become.. Tiresome. Even the places I used to find peace in, no longer hold that warmth, and yet oddly, whenever I just travel the lands, this feeling goes away. I know not if this is Alacritas giving me a task I have yet to see, or the onset of the injuries I have sustained finally making themselves known, but it has not lead to anything untoward of yet. Only time will tell just what it is.
Of this much, I am aware with certainty. I am not bothered by this however, as it is only natural for things to die after a certain point. Sixty Eight years.. Ten of which I seemingly lost somewhere along the line, in service to Alacritas, The Kingdom of Fortune, and in rare cases on an oath for others. And yet, other than the projects I have received help on from those willing to offer such aid.. I have very little to show for it, other then failures and losses, on the things I hold important.
And yet.. I still push forward, because to stop now would be more disgraceful then to continue.
Thus, I have sanctioned and activated two more Sentionauts. My final thank you to my Father, blessed with the same beginnings and learning I was, with no other purpose than to simply live. It has been.. Amusing watching them process and grow, almost looking into a mirror of the past. It makes the weight I carry ever so slightly lighter, a false hope for my own vanity, that perhaps, they will be able to do what I could not. But I will not force them, for it is their choice alone, what path they take.
As for my own personal project, it finally nears its end. All that remains is finding one capable of handling the materials to be used, one that I can trust the same as the ones that had worked on it prior. However I cannot accept anything less then the best on such matters, for it will be left for those that come after I have finally been released of my oaths and duty. Still, I am at least closer now then I have been in years.
Lately however, being anywhere near home, or even in the many cities of the land have become.. Tiresome. Even the places I used to find peace in, no longer hold that warmth, and yet oddly, whenever I just travel the lands, this feeling goes away. I know not if this is Alacritas giving me a task I have yet to see, or the onset of the injuries I have sustained finally making themselves known, but it has not lead to anything untoward of yet. Only time will tell just what it is.
If this is to be my last entry, for whatever reason, then the following will be my last ask to those that may find this log.
Do not remember me.
Do not remember me.
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