Light Singer

[~Aoria-sama~]

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Papa,

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Today is my sixteenth birthday. I’ve spent the day eating donuts and having snowball fights.  These mountains are so beautiful - I wish you could see them.  It’s been four years since I left home and the absence of my family never seems to stop leaving me feeling empty.  I’ve settled roots in a village called Xuefeng and have really made quite a living here. I’ve learned the art of medicine and have managed to build myself a wonderful home with the biggest workshop I could ever dream of. My hard work is both rewarding and isolating. It has become my main focus - to be the best and most skilled I can be. This means my trips across Meranthe have dwindled considerably - and that abundance of friends I had has gone along with it. Though I do suppose friendship goes both ways, doesn’t it Papa?
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Why have most of them forgotten about me?
Why do most of them not come to visit me here in the mountains?
What have I done to deserve it? This abandonment?
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Or perhaps this is all a part of growing up. Perhaps the strains of life have finally begun to settle in all of us and brought forth the realization that one day?..We may very well become enemies. I have chosen Xuefeng, an extension of my people - maybe it has made me less desirable as a friend. Yet even still..I follow the will of Her Sun Goddess. Those that I may guide others toward the path of light in the name of Jiuweihu - they are the reason for my existence. I can’t let my sorrow get in the way of my profound purpose.
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My destiny.
Found.
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Soon I will be baptized in Her Goddess’s light and begin my journey unto the path of becoming one of her Illuminated. The gifts of Her Will have been so bountiful, I have no right to mourn the people I have lost when so much has been also gained. A guiding light in the ever changing path of this life - and she’s led me toward hope…Here in the snowy mountains of Meranthe. Numerous times have I guided those straying from the light back onto the more righteous path. There have been successes and failures. But I have to believe it’s all for a bigger purpose. Toward something greater meant to benefit us all for our neverending devotion to the light of the sun.
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I will shed my outer skin and bathe in that light.
Bare myself before Jiuweihu and ask not for benefits of my own.
But I will instead weep for the unsaved.
Weep for the destinies destroyed and rotted.
For those stuck in The Dark.
…I could not save them…
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Though I still have so much time to carry out my task, I guess.
Today is my sixteenth birthday Papa, and I miss you.
-and I guess what I am saying is…
I miss me, too.
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