My father's shadow

[Did I do that?]

Isn't this what I wanted... 
To grow.
    
You taught me to be kind...
Yet, the world has shown me different.
Engulfed in negativity.
   
You taught me to be strong...
Yet, I was weak when it mattered most.
Fear crawled up my spine.
    
You taught me to love...
Yet, now I stand alone.
Heartless.
    
Now I come asking you father...
To which do I beg forgiveness?
For what I am, or what I am not?
   
For what I will become...
Or what I have became.

May you continue to watch over me, may the night be a long one.

Love, your son...

         

Astra Okabe