Your Little Raven

[Sailor Ryu]

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How many times have you done this now?
Welcomed in ruin to your own life?
Blamed someone but yourself?
Unable to take responsibility for your own judgments.
I'm sorry.
The more you look inward.
The more you see you are just like them.
Doomed to see the world as it is.
Doomed to see the world in scarlet.
It's all my fault.
How much longer can you blame everyone else,
For your own misdeeds and wrong-doings?
Can you truly come to terms with what you are?
What you were born to become.
I could have saved you.
Sworn to a life you cannot uphold.
Stalwart and virtuous in the face of adversity.
An emotionless arbiter of all around you.
Judged in the a way you would judge yourself.
I could have done better.
How many more will you have to lose,
Before you realize it is all your fault?
Before you look inward and see,
You are as much to blame as them.
I'm so tired.
Every person you try to save,
You ultimately end up losing.
Your siblings,
Your parents,
Your friends.
Eventually,
Her.

I don't deserve any of you.
Night after night you suffer.
Tossing and turning in your sleep.
Wondering how much you could have done differently.
A life of absolution, is a life of regret.
Desperate to save everyone,
While never being able to save yourself?
I could have been happy.
Your fall is inevitable;
The longer you fight it, the more suffering it will entail.
You can try as you might,
But the curse of your family cannot be denied.
You are destined to suffer,
It is the price of your existence.
I'm such a liar.
Your honor is stained with dishonor.
Your judgment with injustice.
Your family leaves you abandoned.
Your spirit, broken.
I'm so pathetic.
Will your wake up and realize it in the end?
Will you finally see the imperfections for what they are?
Or will you remain,
your own worst enemy?
I'm my own worst enemy.