04-06-2020, 03:04 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-06-2020, 04:02 AM by Lloyd Durages.)
This is the first entry of my journal. I've never really written something extensively before, but maybe I can use it to look back on my journey and see how far I've come. It helps me calm down too, what with the war coming along soon. I just wish I started sooner!
It's been a few days since the red wedding.
.. It's still on my mind, but I've tried not to think too much about it. The way that man died was gruesome, but at least the worst is over. Lord Grimmore and Lady Asta's marriage will make sure to keep our two kingdoms at peace with one another, and we'll need their help for the war that's coming. The gala was nice, but I didn't really enjoy it for myself. I heard the Queen saying something regarding it possibly being the last time we'll ever get to dance again, so we should enjoy ourselves, but I couldn't. I had some things on my mind, and I'm angry that I didn't do a certain thing, and it just upset me. I saw a lot of the other members dancing - even Uhli, the rhonyish boy. I was kind of jealous since Faira offered me to go with her, but I turned her down because I wanted to [ ]. Now I just felt like an idiot since I didn't even do it. Mister Berrios and Ophelia were having lots of fun, and that made me happy at least, but I needed to get out of the room. It was too packed, too suffocating, and it wasn't making me happy. Ilsa came out, too.. looks like I wasn't the only person that it wasn't really for. It's a shame too considering I was looking forward to it so heavily as well. I'm such a coward..
Other than that, I moved into my new home officially the other day. It took me a lot of work getting everything together, but it's finally done. I just wish ma could see it. It's a fair walk away from most of the other homes in Messaris, and it has a great view of the ocean. Sometimes I stare out at the sea and just let my mind wander. I saw Princess Alice this morning. She blamed me for Gallus' attempts at taking her to the gala back then, but it was just a misunderstanding. I don't think it mattered considering she didn't even attend for some reason. She's always been the most strange out of the royal family to me. She's not exactly a social butterfly, but at the same time, she doesn't seem to have the mannerisms you'd expect of a high noble like herself. If I didn't know any better, I'd have almost thought she was just a regular person.
.. I probably shouldn't say that.
It's been a few days since the red wedding.
.. It's still on my mind, but I've tried not to think too much about it. The way that man died was gruesome, but at least the worst is over. Lord Grimmore and Lady Asta's marriage will make sure to keep our two kingdoms at peace with one another, and we'll need their help for the war that's coming. The gala was nice, but I didn't really enjoy it for myself. I heard the Queen saying something regarding it possibly being the last time we'll ever get to dance again, so we should enjoy ourselves, but I couldn't. I had some things on my mind, and I'm angry that I didn't do a certain thing, and it just upset me. I saw a lot of the other members dancing - even Uhli, the rhonyish boy. I was kind of jealous since Faira offered me to go with her, but I turned her down because I wanted to [ ]. Now I just felt like an idiot since I didn't even do it. Mister Berrios and Ophelia were having lots of fun, and that made me happy at least, but I needed to get out of the room. It was too packed, too suffocating, and it wasn't making me happy. Ilsa came out, too.. looks like I wasn't the only person that it wasn't really for. It's a shame too considering I was looking forward to it so heavily as well. I'm such a coward..
Other than that, I moved into my new home officially the other day. It took me a lot of work getting everything together, but it's finally done. I just wish ma could see it. It's a fair walk away from most of the other homes in Messaris, and it has a great view of the ocean. Sometimes I stare out at the sea and just let my mind wander. I saw Princess Alice this morning. She blamed me for Gallus' attempts at taking her to the gala back then, but it was just a misunderstanding. I don't think it mattered considering she didn't even attend for some reason. She's always been the most strange out of the royal family to me. She's not exactly a social butterfly, but at the same time, she doesn't seem to have the mannerisms you'd expect of a high noble like herself. If I didn't know any better, I'd have almost thought she was just a regular person.
.. I probably shouldn't say that.