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No more Martyrs.
She wouldn't have wanted me to throw my life away.
...I miss you so much.
We fight. We live. We die. The cycle of life repeats itself so often in our minds. It is a daily occurrence for some, and for others, they live a life so complete that it's almost impossible to consider death would follow so soon. Pain and suffering have come to Aphros like no other, so many of us want to fight - so many of us want to see the greater dawn but I understand the Oracle's decree... I see it. Even I've been stopped in my tracks to fight against the one named Xarxes, stopped to fight against the Undead that stole my wife from me four years ago.
...
Has it been four years already?
It feels like only yesterday I was holding you in my arms while we laughed within the square- it feels like a dream when I woke up with you side by side with me in our own bed. Four years you've been gone and I've never felt so lost. I want to charge into the ranks of Skarnfel to take them all down and maybe they would grant me the mercy of death so that I may be with you in the Citadel so far away. ...But... So many have told me that I have a purpose, so many have denied me to go into the Twilight Sky to see you once more because I am needed.
Why?
Why!?
I want revenge. I want to kill them all and... maybe if things were different I would have disagreed with them all and done just that. Charge into the Twilight Sky into the grand tomorrow so that I may see you once again. Because you fell in love with an Orphan boy. ...Why in the world would I make our child one? What kind of father would I be if I did that, if I left their life so soon as it had started? I would be no better than a deadbeat- I would be no better than an abusive parent. I don't want to give my child a life without a loving parent, I want them to know who you were and all those amazing things you were to me.
How can I do that if I join the battle right now? Going against Orders of the highest decree...
I am their Captain.
I've told them to calm their soul and soothe their emotions. There will always be a better tomorrow...
How ironic that I was so ...willing to throw my life away...
...
Has it been four years already?
It feels like only yesterday I was holding you in my arms while we laughed within the square- it feels like a dream when I woke up with you side by side with me in our own bed. Four years you've been gone and I've never felt so lost. I want to charge into the ranks of Skarnfel to take them all down and maybe they would grant me the mercy of death so that I may be with you in the Citadel so far away. ...But... So many have told me that I have a purpose, so many have denied me to go into the Twilight Sky to see you once more because I am needed.
Why?
Why!?
I want revenge. I want to kill them all and... maybe if things were different I would have disagreed with them all and done just that. Charge into the Twilight Sky into the grand tomorrow so that I may see you once again. Because you fell in love with an Orphan boy. ...Why in the world would I make our child one? What kind of father would I be if I did that, if I left their life so soon as it had started? I would be no better than a deadbeat- I would be no better than an abusive parent. I don't want to give my child a life without a loving parent, I want them to know who you were and all those amazing things you were to me.
How can I do that if I join the battle right now? Going against Orders of the highest decree...
I am their Captain.
I've told them to calm their soul and soothe their emotions. There will always be a better tomorrow...
How ironic that I was so ...willing to throw my life away...
No more Martyrs.