08-09-2023, 02:47 AM
It's the funniest thing. I grow Alessa twigs from my head.
Mum named me after those leaves. Kava-Kava is a Gehennan name for them I read, and it's said that the tea made from it is energizing, intoxicating like alcohol. Bitter and numbing, makes you woozy- there are some mana-bolstering properties as well. Oh, and the other funny thing! I've tried alcohol, but didn't feel any change, not an ounce of drunkenness: Beer. Wine. Whiskey. Even snuck a gulp of rubbing alcohol from Miss Natalie's supplies once when she wasn't looking.
Nothing.
I think I can finally put a finger on where that want to numb things began. Calyx died so soon. There was never a body, never any closure, not even a letter of farewell from him. Worse yet, that undead is still out there, hiding from Edward maybe, though in reality, someone else probably put the sword to its throat long ago.
And, oh, another time where things went awry. I poked a sleeping bear, a hidden memory within another's circuits, and now, the rest is simply a blur- sometimes it's hard to tell what I've experienced, and what she's experienced some days. A knife pressed against my throat that I don't know is real.
But, before all of that, I met my dad. It was one time, just before Cal bit the dust- my 'real' father, not Solais, though I'm not sure that title really matters.. after all, he hasn't visited since. But when I was there, before everything, Edward asked him about girls. About her, I guess.
Her; Palade.
Just what does he see in you? Something past the crazy?
Maybe you were different. Maybe he was different...
You said it yourself, to 'Join' my brother. To surrender.
But it doesn't matter. I've proven to be above it already.
It would seem human perfection is irrelevant, when..
True perfection is simply better.
I'll be seeing you soon.
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Mum named me after those leaves. Kava-Kava is a Gehennan name for them I read, and it's said that the tea made from it is energizing, intoxicating like alcohol. Bitter and numbing, makes you woozy- there are some mana-bolstering properties as well. Oh, and the other funny thing! I've tried alcohol, but didn't feel any change, not an ounce of drunkenness: Beer. Wine. Whiskey. Even snuck a gulp of rubbing alcohol from Miss Natalie's supplies once when she wasn't looking.
Nothing.
I think I can finally put a finger on where that want to numb things began. Calyx died so soon. There was never a body, never any closure, not even a letter of farewell from him. Worse yet, that undead is still out there, hiding from Edward maybe, though in reality, someone else probably put the sword to its throat long ago.
And, oh, another time where things went awry. I poked a sleeping bear, a hidden memory within another's circuits, and now, the rest is simply a blur- sometimes it's hard to tell what I've experienced, and what she's experienced some days. A knife pressed against my throat that I don't know is real.
But, before all of that, I met my dad. It was one time, just before Cal bit the dust- my 'real' father, not Solais, though I'm not sure that title really matters.. after all, he hasn't visited since. But when I was there, before everything, Edward asked him about girls. About her, I guess.
Her; Palade.
Just what does he see in you? Something past the crazy?
Maybe you were different. Maybe he was different...
You said it yourself, to 'Join' my brother. To surrender.
But it doesn't matter. I've proven to be above it already.
It would seem human perfection is irrelevant, when..
True perfection is simply better.
I'll be seeing you soon.