Wearing a Smile

[SilkiyTea]

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I am Kala.
You are Perkalas.

I lost my new home, in New Dexia.
You never had a home to begin with.

Taglia and Tristinia are my mothers.
I am your father. And your mother is a corpse, the maggots feast on her eyes.

I have a lot of friends! They're nice.
None of them care for you. They speak through you. At you.

I'm called cute, pretty, and adorable!!
To try and hide away that ugliness. That filth. Disgusting.

My friends like me.
They use you. A puppy. A mutt. A fool.

I am cared for, and loved.
Ideals. Morality. They will never choose you first.

I want to be a doctor to help people.
To hurt people. To bleed them.

I am... Happy.
Misery loves company.

I am strong.
Weak of will. Mind. Body.

I will grit my teeth, and keep my head above the waves.
You are not swimming. You are drowning. Screaming.

I will remember the people I love.
You will remember that they do not love you, as much as you love them.

I will not be like my father.
And yet, I am all you aspire to be.

I am Tired of waking up. . .