Wearing a Smile

[SilkiyTea]

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Every time I close my eyes. I hear it.
A peek, a pinnacle. A scream.
Every single scream. Imaginable.
Moonscorched. All of them.

Dead before they hit the ground.
Dead, and yet aware of it.
Kids my age. Mothers. Fathers.
I heard Father laughing.

In that muted silence. His.
Cackling.

Was it an act of dark humor then?
That the woman- no. Animal.
Who caused such destruction.
Mayhem. Cruelty.

Would allow us farewells.
Goodbyes.
Will her light. Haunt my dreams?

I barely knew her. But she.
Tried to pluck me by my jacket.
To pull me from Father's shadow.
A chance to live. As me.

And not as Father.

Father said.
Father this.
Father that.
Father. Father. Father.

The moon still screams, in the night.
So do the people of New Dexia.
I was. Starting to like it there.
People caring for me, beyond pity.

A wish to look and talk with me.
Not at me.

Gone. All Gone. But I said.
I said I would. Try to shine.
How does shadow shine.
How can a shadow shine?

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By making those that do.
Shine brighter.
By becoming darker.
More discolored.
Until the bright. Vivid colors..

Pop right out!

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It feels like when Father stole Mother.
But I cannot become. A Tragedy.
I will become. Something more.

I will be the ugly. To make the beauty shine.
I shall. Become brave.
I shall. Let my hands. Grow bloody.

I will become the ash.
At the Phoenix's talons.
I will become a dark.
To make the Phoenix's flame.
Stronger.

I can. I will. It's scary. It's.
Okay to be afraid.

I hate that the moon smiles at me
Within my dreams.