Life is too short

[~Aoria-sama~]

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Dear Papa,

The world is a lot scarier than you ever made it seem.  Everything you ever taught me about survival, I never thought that I would have to utilize those skills so soon.

You used to love how the flowers would bloom in the spring - taking care of your garden was a sense of pride for you.

I always admired your ability to care and nurture the things and people in your life, and I think about our walks through the forest so often now that I am alone.

“Every flower is a soul blossoming into nature, where flowers bloom so does hope.”

-but Papa, I see the flowers blooming…So where has my hope gone?

 I know I am supposed to keep moving forward, to never give up…But how am I supposed to do that, when I am so scared to start over?

 To allow myself to love the people in my life, and possibly lose everything again? I don’t know if I could handle it.

I don’t think I ever really handled it when I lost you, to begin with.

No.

I won’t be afraid. I can’t. Not anymore.

From now on I will be brave, for you. For them. All of you.

I’ve made friends here in Meranthe, I think. I don’t know if most of them kind of just tolerate me, but..

I know for sure at least one of them cares, and I swore an oath to protect them.

So everyday I will get out there and fight.

For them, and for me.

Life is too short. So short.

So maybe it's time for me to blossom, just like those flowers.
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