Loved and lost

[Cali]

"I was such a fool to think otherwise.... why would I put my faith in you."

At times I thought it was more about the time spent together
Then what I could give you
But no matter how much I slaved away working to the bone to make sure everyone was happy and in the right state of mind
No one ever asked if I was okay

"Close your heart to it."

But I can't?
Does this make sense to you? I am only human after all as much as a Monster as I wanted to be I cannot void myself of Empathy.
How can I ignore emotions?
It's Impossible and you know it.
                                                           "I love you"

                          I never said it back.

And then you tried to fill my head with dreams of a future that is now impossible all for what?
Pride?

Don't make me laugh my whole life I have been defending my pride and that of my family Don't say it was about pride.

You wanted something of your own, something I couldn't give you even though I had already promised you the world you just wanted to rip me up into pieces you knew what you meant to me and you selfishly did this...

"I was a fool to place faith in you..."



"Such a fool, but never again will I put my trust in someone like you.."

Did you love her?

I don't know...

What will you do now?

I want to drown myself in emotion.

I want my pain to be felt physically I want people to suffer like I am now.

And most importantly I want to have my revenge even if that means I have to die violently to get it.

So you will use your pain and suffering as a weapon.

....

That's what I'll do

Not for you


But for myself...

looking back now
I'm glad I never said it back