my shadow

[InThePooPoo]

Psychosis.


That's what she calls it.
The horde of eyes watching me as they tear apart the world.
The eyes of the people I love and cherish.
The eyes of all the strangers.


Psychosis.







She's staring at me,
the one I did this to myself for.

So is he.
The one that has been at my side forever.

And him.
The one who promised to lift me up whenever I'd fall.

All of them.
The people who hate me, and beat me down every chance they get.
The ones who want to see me succeed,
and thrive.

I'm there, too. 
Looking right back at myself.







Like I'm waiting to see me do something.
Something bad.
It's hard to stop myself sometimes. It's so hard to stop.
But I do.

Every single time.
I stop myself, because I'm better than the worms in my head.
I'm better than the damned. Better than the screamers.
I've only broken down into tears once.

I've only broken down into tears one time.

Psychosis.

That's all it is.

Just Psychosis.