the hopeless

[Frozen Heart]

Have you ever been so alone...

...that no where you go feels like home?

There are many things taken for granted each day; happiness, family, shelter, and love, to name a few. I once had all of the above, and I was satisfied living in the illusion of hope, satisfied thinking that life was some sort of grandiose thing - that it was worth it to live. That was until I was betrayed by the ones I trusted the most.

A letter was received from Starfall Academy, it's wording that I wouldn't be accepted into the most prestigious school of Esshar; I wasn't good enough, not for them... and then my parents subsequently decided that I wasn't good enough to be their child. I was tossed out, with my name stripped away.

Deemed a failure, deemed irredeemable.

Have you ever been so alone...

...that you don't know what to feel anymore?

On my own, I looked for help. The ones I thought of as my friends turned their back on me, they wanted nothing to do with someone who disgraced their family. When I passed by, many things would be chucked at me: rocks, tomatoes, and the like. Everywhere I turned, all I'd see were mocking faces, backs turned to me, laughter, pointing... it hurt to be so excluded; so isolated, until I found it... the truth.


At the end of the day, there was only one thing that stuck with me through it all; my shadow. Darkness blanketed me, it hid me from all who sought to mock me, all who looked at me with disdain, it was my only friend.

I don't think I'll ever live again.