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[Mali]

End(less)

I fell into my mind twice

searching, metal fingers picking

parts of me that i'd like. life

became a contradiction - real, but also

false.

a demimonde that existed in reality

and my mind. And each time I'd wake up,

I'd realize that my

suffering

wasn't

enough.

i asked god for more so that I could be

forgiven, and he gave it. Everything

ached. Every sin dripped from fangs

like venom and I died...twice.

and just before the third, he held me close.

and while i screamed of my rights, he said

"You have the right to live."

and Together, we held each other

and Together, we awoke.

waarm, dizzy, aimless, much like an infant.

i was born again

but before i became coherent, he

told me that this was my last chance.

this

is

my

last

c h a n c e

laugh, live, love.

and i've loved and lived,

but i've yet to laugh.

know that while these posts are generally evil, i've tweaked them

from the original to fit the character better. in any case...

i wasn't supposed to be here, had a very slim chance at living but..

i made it.

it wasn't easy, no really...It was extremely difficult...but i'll spare you

the gritty details of how i came back, at the very least, a spiritual/mental level.

and in all honesty, my creative outlet, writing is what brought me back to speed.

im not sure when I'll be back though. (could be today! tomorrow! a week...a month..or never!)

but in the event that I do...it'll be cute, but anyways. . . back to the point.

know that that I...lo-...

absolutely hate you guys and having a near-death experience won't change that.

not even a slim one.

but i do appreciate you(maybe), but thank you for the laughs.

thank you.