Where can I find it?

[induetime]

Time is so hard to come by. There is never enough of it.

But I need it to find the answer.

I have a good life. They treat me well, and I keep myself busy by being helpful. It's all going well now. The two young misses are growing up so quickly. I don't have to worry about the past too much...

I don't have to, yet I do. I can never let go. I miss them everyday. I hide my pain in my crafts and studies. I keep my mind busy so as to not be reminded of what I lost, yet those moments are ephemeral.

I don't tell them about what goes on in my mind. I don't want to worry them. They've given so much... and yet, they do not have what I want the most. They can't help me find the answer.


But she can help. I was scared, but... she was pleasant. She heard me out. She can help, and she is willing to do so. But the others won't understand...

Do I do as she suggested?

It's too late to go back now, isn't it?.. I screwed up, didn't I?..

But I think this will give me time to find the answer.

I'm sorry.