Rambles of a Pious Woman

[Kippahkid]

Time has passed since the failed raid, 

since Dallan's Resurrection. All is well, ends well right?

So why do I feel guilt?

When I came to Esshar, I wanted to be like the Stellus.

A woman of peace who doesn't need bloodshed,

A respected leader who rarely fights.

But deep down, there is a burning in me.

It first appeared at the academy

When we fought that witch in the mountains.

I thought nothing of it but since that raid...

Since I fully embraced the light of Yiel...

That burning has ignited to fury.

I am a pious woman,

And I am a woman pragmatiscm,

So I watched my cosmic mentor's execution unshaken.

I accepted her bow with no regret.

I promised to use it only for protection.

So I left a permanent brand of Yiel on a heretic.

Did Uncle Atticus have these feelings?

Even worse, did my kin Lannis have them?

Will I end up like him if I continue fueling this fury?

But...Dallan is a devout of Yiel too, and he was rewarded.

Lannis drew from an unholy source, I draw from my birthright.

I am not like him!

I am a scholar,

I am a diplomat,

I am holy.