What do you....Want?

[~Aoria-sama~]

Growth
II.

Things have been looking up.
It's been a while since I've wrote in this old book, so this might be long..
Since I've decided to be more confident, a lot of things in my life have changed.

I talk a lot more, even when it's hard.
It's easier for me to cope with uncomfortable situations.
I'm spending much less coin on bandaging for my fingers - because I do it less, now.
I'm passing all of my classes, except maybe gym but...Is gym that important?

Deep down, I think I am beginning to understand why I was put into house Leonaus. I've been thinking about it a lot, more so recently, with every stride I take at being more confident. I think it's my strength to overcome my own fears, that makes me so fit for Leonaus. The way my need to protect those around me, helps me overcome my own fears, too.

Am I brave, yet?

Brave enough to ask Caster to the Illumination dance.
Strong enough to take his rejection.

To talk to Rhesus about it, to let him see me cry?
Maybe that was brave, too.

To be brave enough to tell Cortado he's coming with me to the dance.
For him to agree? Now that's...
I don't know what to call that - but it formed a beautiful friendship.
I only tripped once at the dance, too.

Everything has been falling into place.
I've earned my medical badge.
I was able to learn holy magic, too.

I went on a trip with my siblings into the basement of the academy, and found those old child like spirits.
I was also hand picked by my mother for being an excellent student, to go on a field trip.
Both trips were so scary.
I even got injured, but it's a secret.
I won't let anyone see my weaknesses anymore.
Mom, dad, are you listening?


I am a Pelleaux, maybe, after all.


Now, to find out what this book I found in the Academy's basement is for . . .
How can I take my compassion for others, and change the world? . . .
...Me?