Merchant Dossier

[Ziagfu]

What is the self? What separates 'Me' from 'You' from 'Him' and 'It'? A sense of self worth given through words is difficult to keep from feeling like too much.  Why should I say that I am happy when I'm not. The past me would have been happy at something like this.. He would have been joyous at the prospect of being a city guard. A warrior with a cause.

It's been a long time since he's been truly happy.

Y: 1746
Earn: 12000
Spend: 11000
Major Purchases: Misc Investments - 6000, Exported Goods - 2000, Healing Tonics - 3000
Unaccounted loses: 364 - found missing some time after fight with [Classified]

Everything He's done, and ever will do is irrelevant. No one gives a shit about him, his attempts, his desires.. nothing beyond what violence he brings on them so they can feel good about themselves.
 
He is little more than a monster to them.

Longest gone without a serious fight: 2/5ths of a year
Suicide attempts: 1
Number of confusing thoughts: 1
Why does he try to talk, when he knows he is never heard?