Inheritors of a Dream

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Sitting silently within the gigantic walls, and barren dunes provided by her new home, the newly crowned Amamiya finds herself within an internal monologue.

For who had observed her, it would seem as if she had just - forgot to care about the social interaction she was a part of, but much deeper - was the rampant pessimism her aspect of Nihilism provided within her head. After all, many other people had things to say about her, and how she lived, she was still a human, and she would think about them extensively.

"But I mean... 
They are kind of right, though."

"I had assumed we didn't resort to zealotry. "
"I was always told to pursue my whims as long as it respected the sisters."

"I am spreading the philosophy - and seeking strength through my belief in them."

"No, but like, really. By definition, you are actually a heretic. That, and you're hiding an addiction."

"Your perspective on death is generally at odds with theirs, and because your religion is entirely familial,
beyond those who you have inducted, by definition, by sheer value of numbers, you are a heretic, Vena."
"But much more than that, you're a sect leader... Who specifically focuses on ritualistic endeavors."
"There was no possible way this was going to be perceived positively."

 "Oh nooooo. You figured out my super secret master plan, Whatever. Shall I do."

"But you see, its actually more than that. You know what you're after..You know exactly what you're doing."
"And that's why you don't say it, because you know how it would be perceived."
"Even if they don't, because they haven't realized what you have been doing."
"You can't lie to me."

"My goals are genuine."

"My primary focus is empowerment, even at my expense."

"Vena, I said you can't lie to me. "
"You know exactly what you're aiming for. You know what you're truly aiming for."
"There's a reason you only speak of it with those who you trust."

"In fact ...  Your mother likely knows what you are actually up to."

"We're all against you, why would the world want you to succeed, knowing what you truly are?
"Maybe.. You should give into your greed! Let it consume you entirely!"
"Use the world as your paint brush, and create whatever meaning you decide

- even ones that don't make sense, because it all means nothing in the end!"

"Mad about some titles, they're just some words to justify and align structure. "

"People can be such a pain in the ass, as if a title has any meaning without the value placed upon it." 

"An entirely arbitrary and metaphysical concept, but they're not 'over' emotions enough to notice that."

"Haha...The walls are closing in, yeah."
"It'd be a good time to have those Valkyries..."
"But I just need a little more time.." 
"I'm very useful... People just don't see it yet."

"My greed.. Mh.. I should really stop letting my pessimism run riot like this, in my head."
"It's had dire consequences before.."

"And that's about to cost me ten years of my life."

"All will be revealed in time..."
"Just a little... More time..."

{And there was silence within her mind, for now}