Iridescent Heart - Shiri Shi Shimasu

[Benyah]

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I did what I thought was right. 

I did what I believed was best for us. 
You have put your trust in me, to do what I must for our cause.

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And it seems... 

The sum total of my actions leads others to believe..

I am some vile creature who knows nothing but harming those around them.

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Well then, I'll claim my title as the "Vile". 

And I will wear that with pride, because my vile nature? 
Who I am, who I may be, I never wavered on those beliefs.

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But a Queen must realize when her reign has ended. 

Some Queen, who harms her subjects with every action. At least, that is their proclamation. Who would want to be Queen? 

Just another puppet, one to be replaced eventually.

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Contrary to what the world perceives...

You are set free. 
And you are allowed to live, breathe, and appreciate the world. 
And you will be strong, for the battles you face are not mine, but from your perspective, I suppose that brings you joy. 

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This world I made, with my own two hands. 

This pride I have, built off of every failure I've endured. 

This self righteous nature, acquired over a decade and some of doing wrong, and being wrong. 

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But has it not brought you success? 

Have my flaws not brought you boons? Yet you proclaim, it is all agony.

Don't you know? There's a price to pay for everything. I have paid that price in blood, for my ways, several times.

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But what have you paid? What have you granted? 

So evil and vile, never making the right decisions, but I don't deserve pity.

Because all of my actions were my own, and I do not regret a single one. I've said I was changing, how many times, to how many people.

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And I am.

That is why this is my first act of change, the Vile Princess of the Shigenobu Clan, sets free those who cannot stand the agony she inflicts.

That's what this has always been, I've always left when I was not wanted. But this time? I will not leave nor abandon what I have created, so the evils found to deep must fester within the minds of those who seek freedom. 

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You are set free. 

And if I am all that remains, and I am alone on a boat, and I travel the forests as I enjoy nature, and find peace, in the lands where the Kozaks are. 

Then I am happy. 

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No one else, could've done what this world has asked of me.

And for that.
I am forever free.

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Won't the heavens shine down upon me? 

Acknowledge me for all I have done? Or is it not enough?

Must I do more? Must I keep toiling, and when I die, will I go where they stand defiant? 

I've been searching for death for awhile now, to be freed from this dogmatic way of life. 

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Darkness, or light.

I will remain righteous until I have no breath left to breathe.

And it will not be taken from me.

My heart aches in a way I cannot describe, and I suppose this is the part where I...

Fall into despair.

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