I Don't Know Who I Am

[ry0un0suke]

. . .

And it is of my making,

born from my hands

that are incapable

of reaching out.

No longer do I

have energy to plea.

No longer do I

have energy to pretend.

In the dark

I will fall

and never rise

because I know

I am not strong,

I am not wise.

I am determined

to fulfill my own failure

because why dedicate myself

to my success?

I'm scared.

.

.

.

.

I am scared and no one sees.

I am scared and no one understands.

I am scared and it is confusing,

not compelling,

I am no mystery.

I'm nothing.

I should not ask for help.

I should not ask questions.

I should not be confused.

.

.

.

.

What are you doing?

"Nothing."

Why?

"I don't know."

Do something.

"There's nothing to do."

Why?

"No one likes me."

Why?

"Because I hate me."

Why?

". . ."

Why?

". . ."

Why?

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.

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everything is alright

i am managing well

nothing is out of the ordinary

. . .