I Don't Know Who I Am

[ry0un0suke]

. . .

at my limit already, one turn, two? enduring, enduring well. strong, i am, i promise. strong, very strong. i cannot trust anyone. why? i'll let them down, so i'm strong. i cannot rely on you all of the time. i'm strong, i promise. i can handle it. i can handle anything; nothing is impossible, just difficult. you told me this- i'm sorry. i'm incapable, it's showing. i'm no better, i never improved. i'll never improve.

. . .

your attitude,

your need for others,

your craving of attention,

your scrutiny,

your envy,

your inability,

your stupidity,

your clumsiness,

your refusal,

i am determined to hate

everything about you.

your hair,

your smile,

your courage,

your curiosity,

your dedication,

your imagination,

your devotion,

your commitment,

your failures,

your successes,

your accomplishments,

your beauty,

i am determined

to find out

why anyone

loves anything

about you.