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I remember when I was 18.
I was young, scared, and naive. Not only that, but I wanted to make a name for myself, I wanted to contribute something to this world.
Now, I'm 26, about to be 27. I wish I could go back in time and make different decisions, there are so many things I'd do differently.
I guess I didn't know it then, but I was making memories. For my dead friends, and those I cared for, I couldn't imagine today I'd be without you. I try to ignore it, but it haunts me every day to think of the ones we've lost. I fear, even greater, the ones I will lose. Or, leave behind.
I don't know, maybe I should've tried harder to be a fighter, maybe I should've ...
All these could've would've should've's.
I'm exhausted, but it's never the right time to rest.
Everything's going to be alright, new beginnings over old endings.
Even if it doesn't feel right.
I was young, scared, and naive. Not only that, but I wanted to make a name for myself, I wanted to contribute something to this world.
Now, I'm 26, about to be 27. I wish I could go back in time and make different decisions, there are so many things I'd do differently.
I guess I didn't know it then, but I was making memories. For my dead friends, and those I cared for, I couldn't imagine today I'd be without you. I try to ignore it, but it haunts me every day to think of the ones we've lost. I fear, even greater, the ones I will lose. Or, leave behind.
I don't know, maybe I should've tried harder to be a fighter, maybe I should've ...
All these could've would've should've's.
I'm exhausted, but it's never the right time to rest.
Everything's going to be alright, new beginnings over old endings.
Even if it doesn't feel right.
I wonder if I've reached my limit, I wonder if there's higher for me to go than here. I'm 26, I'm in my prime, the finest I've ever been, the most accomplished I've ever been. The strongest... I've ever been.
Do I only go downward from here? If I died right here, would they remember me?
Do I only go downward from here? If I died right here, would they remember me?
And what would they remember me for?
Hopefully for trying my best.
Hopefully for trying my best.
I remember when I first started on my journey, people looking down on me. I bet they pitied me, thought I wasn't going to make anything of myself.
What are they saying now? Have they realized how I've become over the years?
But I don't want to stop here… I want to keep going, I want to show them how wrong they were.
What are they saying now? Have they realized how I've become over the years?
But I don't want to stop here… I want to keep going, I want to show them how wrong they were.
Regardless…
I want to go higher.
I want to be remembered.
Can you take me higher?