Quote:Who am I really?
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Another day, another lady makes way into my quarters, of course she was invited.
I can't help but wonder if there's not something more within this world, for me.
And I'm tired of people saying the same things "you'll find love" "such things work out on their own"; I don't care. I'm tired of hearing it.
I want a crown to cast a shadow upon my imperfections. I desire more coin that I can spend in a reasonable time. I desire more recognition to drown those who doubt to death in my acclaim.
Maybe I'm taking things too seriously...
But I'm tired of all of these privileged nobles deciding: "I"ve already got it good enough, I want to be like you, the poor commoner"
But we all want what we can't have...
I acknowledge my hypocrisy. Well, I look upon those with lesser and they say: "You're blessed Shiri". I would've looked at myself and said that now. To think in a year I've come so far, and yet I neglect to deny some things being whispered in my ear.
You'd find this the part of the story where I grow up, and stop craving what it is I don't have, and settle for what I do, but it has been offered to me. Play my cards right...
But what's the right move? See, this play called power is a lot like a woman. How do I say the right words to make it work? How do I do the right things to get the best outcome?
Questions which you'll never have the answers for... I guess you've just got to... try your best! Hope for the stars, and at worst land in the sky. Remain faithful, remain hopeful, don't lose yourself and stay true to you.
Maybe... I should take my own advice…instead of hypothetically ranting into a journal, as if it is a friend I can confide my truest, and darkest thoughts within.
I can't help but wonder if there's not something more within this world, for me.
And I'm tired of people saying the same things "you'll find love" "such things work out on their own"; I don't care. I'm tired of hearing it.
I want a crown to cast a shadow upon my imperfections. I desire more coin that I can spend in a reasonable time. I desire more recognition to drown those who doubt to death in my acclaim.
Maybe I'm taking things too seriously...
But I'm tired of all of these privileged nobles deciding: "I"ve already got it good enough, I want to be like you, the poor commoner"
But we all want what we can't have...
I acknowledge my hypocrisy. Well, I look upon those with lesser and they say: "You're blessed Shiri". I would've looked at myself and said that now. To think in a year I've come so far, and yet I neglect to deny some things being whispered in my ear.
You'd find this the part of the story where I grow up, and stop craving what it is I don't have, and settle for what I do, but it has been offered to me. Play my cards right...
But what's the right move? See, this play called power is a lot like a woman. How do I say the right words to make it work? How do I do the right things to get the best outcome?
Questions which you'll never have the answers for... I guess you've just got to... try your best! Hope for the stars, and at worst land in the sky. Remain faithful, remain hopeful, don't lose yourself and stay true to you.
Maybe... I should take my own advice…instead of hypothetically ranting into a journal, as if it is a friend I can confide my truest, and darkest thoughts within.