Oh Ye of Gilded Alloy

[akemimera]

[[Ambiance]]

There comes a point, when one is cursed to with lifespans that exceed even the hardiest of species, that envy for the those without such, forms. Their lives, mere blinks of an eye, bright and vibrant, and yet gone before you know it. As I write in this journal, I am reminded in perfect detail, of everything. From those that helped me get to where I am today, all the way down to those I have lost, either through wars, or old age. And all I have to say is, Eternity is a long time to spend alone.

Even now, as the very thing that was put down to safe guard the lifestream eats away at me, the silent agony of such endured, for I have asked far to much of my friends already, with very little offered in return but a favor should they ask of it. Perhaps Eivor was right. I should have taken my own life prior to this point, sooner, perhaps, for failing to save Tristinia from her fate, despite her dying wishes. And yet for some reason or another I stubbornly persist.

My loving family, dead or missing
My fellow siblings, Lost to the Sands
Those who are left, my closest friends,
I wish to reduce their suffering by simply becoming forgotten,
For they have suffered enough.
As I am at the end of the day, Hardware to be expended.
And I have made my peace with such.

But I cannot leave the Facility without its caretaker. My fathers works, and the means of making more of my kind to valuable to my to simply let vanish. Hypocrisy of the highest order, but no one is perfect. So I take my seat upon the throne, one hidden from the world, short of those that need to know, and submerse myself in its systems, waiting for the day a person with those same ideals as my father returns to take the reins, as the beating heart of the Facility's reactor keeps me going for just that much longer.

My father, your design of me, and the sentionauts was a work of genius, for what they are. But I never figured out how to fix that fatal flaw I found in the design.
How does one stop the spiral once it begins...