Secrets of the Clouded Prithvi

[Kynim]

Please don't ever become a stranger, who's laugh I can recognize anywhere..
Hold onto the memories, they will hold onto you.

I have been in the spirit realm for far too long- it was months ago I could recognize my Self becoming less and less; as I come to the conclusion that He may never be found, my resolve shatters- only to be rebuilt with the dream that I may yet find him once more. The more that I tread, the more I worry; how will the world be when I return? How can I come back and face them all.. tell them that I failed?

I hold onto these failures- these anguished points in my life evermore, letting them surface into folklore. I have braved the ever-expansive world of Terraheim to find him, to find.. Her, to find.. them, and I find nothing. I have tread the world of Uraheim and the watery, endless expanse and battled fierce beings to test my resolve and I find that it only brings me more pain and anguish to know that I'll never find them. I wish I knew how to cope with the hurt.

I can't keep doing this.. and yet here I am, in Alfheim; the realm of the Meek.. and yet how apt of a name. It's peaceful here.. It hurts, so much less. It's hard to press on further. My body feels more spectral than corporeal, my mind urging itself to give up the fight.. the.. quest.. the.. promise.. It will never give me what I want in the end, will it..? So many have told me that.. and promised me... that.. I'll never find what I seek. The spirit realm is not for the faint of heart.. 

.. I only hope that.. I could.. continue my journey..
I only want to finish my quest of becoming more than they abandoned, I



I wish that I could become the Answer to my problems

...

ah

that answer had been there ere long before I had come to realize it

For I have worked tirelessly- at every point in my life- to measure up to the weight of the world

My own dreams have been to help realize those of those around me, and to uplift them- and to that, I can finally live up to my Answer

Because we made a Promise to the world just as it once made one to us when the tragedies of the world first began, and She taught us about the Song

But what about you? 

You remain so meek, Mitsuki. Are you most certain that you can continue your own journey..

.. your story, your quest? You have felt so much pain- and disappointment- and failure. Nobody would ask you to continue

You were always meant to be a golden fox frolicking among the clouds after all. Nobody could fault you for choosing to stay here.

I will continue our story- our destiny- for we are one and the same. I am the part of you that was born from your dream and fascination

I'm sure most would understand.

Rest well, my friend. I hope you got your wish...