The Promise

[Coroneljones]

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Eleanor,

It is an oddity, to stand before the threshold where life meets death, and when I should know what to say in finality, there is...

Nothing at all.

Here I am, at the gates I stand, before the tormented husk that once loved Man so much.

And I cannot bring myself to take his hand and be ushered along.

I could say I was waiting for another, that may fall due to how gullible I was.

I could say I needed time to think and dwell upon my regrets, lest Helheim claim me.

I could say I...

I could say many things, yet there is only one truth.

I´m afraid.

I´m afraid of letting go.

I´m afraid of where I would end up.

I´m afraid of You, and of shattering your hopes, by seeing me.

Would you say that someone who had every intention to be brave, was a coward?

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Neither of us will be who we last saw.

Your ghost that haunts me memory has kept me going for so long, that I fear seeing how much it diverges.

Just as much as I fear your disappointment, at how our dream turned out
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I remember your smile, radiant and warm.

I remember your kindness and joy.

I remember your love for life, and every wonder of this world, as you fought against what ailed you

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I remember you, when so many may have already forgotten, back home.

And that is why I cannot cross that threshold.

For what awaits me on the other side, to where He shall usher me to?

Fear.

Disappointment.

Regret.

Emptiness.

Helheim will drag me unto it, and sit me upon a throne of my own making, to lash me upon my regrets.

I´m not ready, for I have much to make up for.

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I have a memory to uphold, and a dream to carry.

I have mistakes to make up for, and regrets to bury.

I have people to save and care for.

I have a life to live and love, and tears to shed, for that is why I cannot bring myself to see you once more.
Our Vow Eternal.

I may suffer for my choices, yet they are my own, and for as long as I uphold my vow I shall endure the punishment.

Failure is ever fading, and each fall is a lesson.

Growth, in every pain.

A second chance, First and Last.

For I am the Inheritor of Pylae´s Will and Justice.

For I am a Knight of His Hope for All.

For I am a Champion of Light.

For I am a Protector of Man.

For I am a Redeemer of the Worthy.
For I am Paragon and Saint, to some.

A Knight and Herald once more, of one who has given me a love for life once more.

Who has given me what I had lost, since I lost you.

I cant stop now.

I promised to so many that I would be there for them.

And my duty is far from over.

Goodbye, Kindred Soul of Mine.

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