ryou's doodles

[ry0un0suke]

I've been drawing since I can remember. I'm currently 19 years old so maybe that's a long time. I was blessed enough to major in Illustration and minor in Creative Writing at a very good art college in my city. It's expensive and Covid has left be very worried and unmotivated as ever. While other artists have been working hard, the last time I really drew anything was in January. My social media has been abandoned since February. It sucks. I wonder where this lack of will to do anything came from. Like I've been tossed in some sort of hole where my hands wish to move and make art but it can't. So instead of drawing I've been writing but it's not quite enough. I'm dissatisfied with everything and every narrative I spin. I got fired and that sucks so now I can make money to travel and upgrade my equipment. It's not as though what I have is bad but there's just a lot to do and while the rest of the world makes their efforts to move forward.
 
I'm not sure how long I've been sitting and wallowing. It's... mh, very tough to describe. Everything else crumbles and it's currently August and the last time I really drew was the last time I posted on this thread. My one passion feels like it's slipping away and I'm not exactly sure why I feel the need to vent on my thread but, I suppose since it's my thread that it's okay. This blurb can be ignored for the art at the bottom.
 
Something ambitious, too much so for me after not drawing for so long. Classes return in September and I'm told I need to give them $4,000 and FAFSA is silly and stupid but it's also my own fault. I began to sketch this and I cried because I hated it. It took maybe an hour including my own small wave of doubt. Will people like it? Will I like it? Here I am in a hole that fills and it's suffocating. Everything is overwhelming. I feel like I'm dying physically because I'm a moron and fucked up my ribcage, my writing feels mediocre, I'm unemployed, college is bleh and art is there and I can't face it. I'm jealous of those who figure out how to push forward when everything is stacked on top of them. People like that are superheroes, really. 
 
Can my art reach people? Can it touch them in some way? I want to be an illustrator and I want to write stories. I want dumbass trans boys to know to bind properly so they aren't in pain for eight months. I want people to smile when they see something I drew, I want them to feel as though the stories I make are well written. 
 
I think when you can sit down and maybe write to a friend or on a very public forum that your feelings become real and manifest. When expressed, you can no longer ignore them. Be it words, music, poetry, performance or a dumb drawing inspired from a rather nice image you saw on Pinterest. 
  
Here's Del, they're dead but I've wanted to draw them for so long but I've been drowning. I'm not asking for pity or anything. If it's put out there in some degree then it's real and can be fought. I can say that drawing once more has made me feel just a bit better. Draw more, write more, walk outside (with a mask and safely), pet your dog or cat, hug your mom, see a friend, call someone, eat your favorite dish.
 
It sucks but we're all hanging in there. Move at your own pace.
 

 

[ry0un0suke]

Oh? What's this? Your E3 character is going up into smokes because of the timeskip? You're for it or against it? Made some neat characters since Nov 2019 to now? Well, your resident doodler and illustrator is forcing himself from his nine month hiatus and offering more than doodles. 
 
Subject to change. I'm offering only three detailed commissions. Will only accept if interested also. Motivation is nonexistent very sorry! Will edit detailed commission availability if there's folks who're interested in it! Who knows! ry0un0suke#6117

Rendered=Fully colored. This is outdated since I've been meaning to make adjustments but, it gets the point across. Flat colors (no shading) will dance between line and rendered prices if that's something you like!
  

Rendered examples. Bust, half body and full body. I will only do things I have interest in despite my current need for income. Some things I will not draw: Heavy armor, extremely detailed weapons, backgrounds unless specified. Cost increases. My style is not consistent and always evolving.
 
Doodles are still available! There's no limit on this per se. $5 for one character, $8 for two characters/one character with background. Peruse the thread for examples. More stuff exists on my dusty, abandoned Instagram if you vibe with that I guess. With that said? Have Jianyu.

  

Detailed commission availability: Three.

[ry0un0suke]

Commission! Doodle oodle for Quack. $5. 
And then Jianyu doodle, censored for the forums. :pray:

[ry0un0suke]

Real version. Not meant for forum eyes I suppose. View at your own risk.
 Follow me if you'd like I don't care too much.

 
Misha young and old.


Four done since post. One on the back burner. Somewhat opened but, dear ol Zoom classes have started. Will depend on interest.
Still open for these and more detailed pieces.
I imagine Razuka with more yellow undertones and Lapine with red.

[ry0un0suke]

Art brain go brrrrr. Commissions are still open... If you ask, do know I currently have three to complete and I'm in college and trying to grip onto motivation.
Have a Howl concept and something cute of my favorite rodent.

[ry0un0suke]

Sell outs and rats. 
Balancing some things. DM me again if you asked for a commission. Things are a little nutty IRL!

[ry0un0suke]

"Let me tell you, to die would be an awfully big adventure."
"You can't stop living just because someone else has."
"My love, don't sink, don't sink."
"Your Queen."

My Everything.
Classwork and things...

[ry0un0suke]

Just gonna post here since Discord assumed this to be an unsolicited porn image, I guess! I'm extremely discouraged now. I must do another one of these for class and I have no ideas and everything kinda sucks.
Commissions opening soon??? December??? Only detailed commissions starting at $20+ (this level of detail. Ranging from head shot to full body) since I'm unemployed. No more doodles for now!

[ry0un0suke]

Admire her. Now. :dagger:
I've never been more proud of anything I've drawn this year.
Not like I've really drawn anything in 2020.
2021 when?
This is a class thing like the other one I posted.
One day my coloring will be God tier. Not yet. Soon...

[ry0un0suke]

A batch of stuff and things! I currently have three commissions to work on as of now!
  
A cute Knight.

A cute Elf Teraphim.


A product of my own misunderstanding so Roy now has an axe and sword.


I move kinda slow but, if that's no issue and you're interested in a doodle or more detailed piece (the second) then DM me on Discord @ ry0un0suke#6117
I may be rising the price of doodles to $8-$10/one character since they're getting a bit more detailed!