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I never complain.  Never once have I.
I aways accepted the fact that I was the black sheep of my family.
I always accepted its them over me.

I followed my heart he got killed. 
No one made sure I was okay but one person.
I cried myself to sleep more nights than I could count.

I found love again and all I do is worry.
No one still checks in on me.
No one even knows my little secret.

I followed my heart again and I am happy.
I've started my own little family.
Are you proud?

Why do these chains still feel like I am suffocating?
Do I have to follow underneath everyone still?
I am my own person arent I?
Did you know I craft or that I paint?

Am I worth  paying attention to? 
From where I stand.. the answer  is clear.
I am not.

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I am starting to Complain
All I show is love and compassion 
All I have ever done is work work work... but-

When will it be my turn?

I have given my whole life to the faith
To pleasing others
But-

When will it be my turn?

I see day by day people being blessed 
Their wings being brought upon them
Their strength that its given but-

When will it be my turn?

Has she not seen the work i supply for her
The endless nights 
The headaches 

When will it be my turn?





Does she not see how much this hurts? It feels like i am wrapped in never ending chains.

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"At times, Life comes in blurs. I tend to be happy one day and sad the next. I act like things don't hurt me to be strong for those around me but...I think its time to start showing my emotions. I say I am an open book but am I truly? I hide how I feel on a daily bases to everyone...Even my family."

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"I am trying...My emotions are slowly coming out but...its not good enough. I am angry at people who do not deserve it. I see that. What am I going to do?"

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"In times where so many things are happening. All I want to do is create. Create something new! I want to leave behind something for our children."

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"I keep giving and giving. It does not bug me much...But should I be giving so much of myself to others when I don't even give myself....myself?"

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"If I die today, Its my fault. I understand my choices make me a target for some. I take full responsibility for my actions in those I have hurt."

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"Its not much, My imagination at least. Though, My creativity sprouts more and more everyday. The strength I have to Pull to make sure they are okay creating a world they can be proud to live in."

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"I am okay...My emotions are coming together nicely. I am able to control them more. I am there for others again no matter how tired I may get. I hope they see how much love I have for my town and for them."

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"Over the years I have learned and ignored the pain of my family dying. I have stayed as strong as I could for my people... There is  only so much before someone reaches a breaking point. I am afraid I have reached it. The bottle of medicine looks better to me than going outside everyday. The endless sleep that means I see my daughter again. To have to bury a family member is one thing but to bury your child? That is a pain I wish on not even my worst enemy. To know she is gone...that another part of me is dead...I would be better dead with them. Why leave a fourth of a person when they could be whole again. I have pretty much lost the god/goddess I have worshiped since I was eleven to now have lost my child...I  am so close to just ending it all and saying goodbye."- Asterin

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"I am sorry I have failed."-mom

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I lost

You lost

We Lost

You died    

I lived

We ...are not the same

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You were good

I was too

In the end...

I gave up

And you were still dead.