Questions and Answers

[Milly]

The Question.

The ultimate exploration of everything.
The very tenet that I was made created born to answer, and to pose onto humanity.

When is a soul too far gone? What is the precise cosmic formula to achieve perfect order? No one knows - not even I know, despite my close faith with Athelios. But certainly, we can try to get close to the truth. We can examine and come up with our own truths and our own opinions over time, but none of us ever truly know what that formula is. Is it seeking redemption, and atonement? Is it paying for the lives that have been ruined by the thousands, and the homes and cities destroyed and caught ablaze by what you've done? Or is it coming to terms with what you've done and accepting that no one is perfect - but everyone can strive to be better going forward.

That's what I believe, anyway.
Perhaps when I die and go back to Hel, Athelios will slap the shit out of me and tell me how wrong I am. How every step I've done has been wrong - even though I know he won't. I have fought against the things that I've viewed as wrong - a Necromancer being kept safe and sound within Gloomlight, the revival and cleansing of the Imperfect Na'Ria, the ascension of Catildre as a being of pure chaos and discord, even RISE. But then, I pose myself questions. Hard questions, to test my own knowledge and faith: Is the knowledge of Necromancy itself sinful, or is the act? If Necromancy isn't performed, is it still a sin? Is offering freedom of choice and a path to be able to do better to Demons who wish for it a sin?

But, much like The Question, there isn't an actual answer to this. It's only opinions. Opinions, opinions, opinions.

The only thing that I can truly hope and pray for ultimately? Is that when I die, and I join Athelios at his side, he finds that I've achieved my own version of perfect balance and order. That I mirror him in the only way that I, Ezra, can. Because in the end, that's all we can do - achieve our own balance.

Ad astra per aspera.